I just cant forget you..

Afterall,it just seems that i cant forget you..

How can you just stick and lay around my mind,my memories..

I thought i have forgotten you.

But i didnt afterall.

Until now,when i think of you,tears come gushing to my eyes.

But i just cant let it flow.

I know that the moment i do that,the more i cant forget you.

Why is it that feelings for you just get revived so easily.

I thought my feelings for you are long gone.

But when i come to think of it.

Maybe i just fell for you because you are just so nice to me.

Even though there are times you actually make me feel so stupid.

But i just like you.

Once i thought to myself,why do i actually like you.

But i realised,the list is just too long to list.

I never dared to use the word love on anyone,unless i am so sure that i am willing to do anything for him/her.

For you,i was never given the chance so i dun know.

But for the first time,u are one that i felt so strongly to say the word love.

Is it because i am just so lonely that i can just fall for anyone who treats me well..

I admit i do like others before.

But you are the one,the only one that made me fell for you for years.

When you didnt turn up,i am worried for you.

When I see your name in my my contacts,i just have the urge to text you,call you.

But i never dared to.

When I heard you together with other girls,I always hoped it wasnt true.

When I see a girl nice to you,even if I know it is nothing much,I just got jealous.

I see things,I feel like buying for you.

During streaming,I knew that we might be in diff class,I just got so upset by the thought that i actually cried.

When I knew we are in different class,I just couldn't leave you,I transferred to your class,giving up the position in the best class. I cant think of a day without you.

In poly,i know the chances of not being in the same course. But i wanted to see you,so I thought,at least let me be in the same poly as you.

What is this?!

I never did so much for someone before.

I always remind myself of the pain i had on the day before V'day.

I wanted to tell you how I felt,but ended couldnt coz u had a girl by your side alr.

I remembered the pain was so extreme till i said i never want to fall for anyone ever again.

I dun want to experience this anymore.

I told myself,if he had feelings for you,he wouldnt be with her.

So forget him.

I remember after the pain,after the crying for a day,I had no feelings anymore.

But till last week. I saw him in school.

I felt like the first time i saw him.

I seem to fall for him once again.

Memories came streaming back.