Getting bruises and scars are part and parcel of life. Learn to take them as it is.

I feel that as if i indeed think differently then what i did when i was young.

Remembering when i was 8,i learnt cycling.

But of course i did not master it at the end.

I was always afraid of falling.

And everytime i fell,i refused to try again. I was reluctant. I was afraid of falling again. I am afraid of getting hurt.

I don't want to get hurt. All i want to do is to protect myself from harm. Protect myself from getting hurt.

This is the nature of us.

But now. In fact,i am trying if get myself hurt. Of course not in a psychotic way but it is just that,i want to let myself learn to handle falls. I want to remember the feeling of getting hurt. I want to know how is it being like. Take it as an addition of experiences in life then. I want to handle falls and so I know what to do after falling and not crying. Crying does not help. And so I won't allow myself to cry after falls.

I know that of course,prevention is better than cure. But,protecting from harm makes me miss out lots of stuff.

I don't want a day to happen like if I look back and think,what do I know,what have I learnt all this years and I realised,I know nothing.